You're "generally happy, " yet you spend your life dwelling on the past--that doesn't really sync up, does it?

These places always cheer me up.

So I think they will be really pleased tonight.

I have been too much at my ease, too happy, too frank.

I had reflected then that, whatever s cenes of desolation lay ahead of us, I never feared one more brutal than this, and I reflected now that it had no single happy memory for me.